Story short 11 years of social absence . I am now trying to get a good, strong start fixing my life. When I want to do something I do it , and I do it fast. I am making big changes and I am very excited. My question to you is to be natural and not take the pill for my imbalance , and to suffer alot of embarrassment and never be able to balance my emotions, and focus.....and blend in . Or just accept that I need the pill for the rest of my life.