It has been observed that as much, if not more, can be learned from failure as from success. We all know it's true; failures are often very informative, particularly if you can trace the root causes of the failure. In that spirit, I offer the causes of my academic debacle that took place during my freshman year at Hillsborough Community College. One cause for my failure was a lack of prioritizing my educational duties and instead, embracing my first year as a social experiment. Secondly, the most paramount reason for my failure could be attributed to my lack of vision and having no intrinsic motivating factor driving me to pursue an education. And equally important as identifying the causes of failing is to realize the solutions and maybe what alternate choices could have been made to prevent failing as to ensure it doesn’t occur again. Coming out of high school and viewing college as a surround of various ethnicities, religions and backgrounds, I was captivated by the experience of socializing and communing with lots of new and interesting people. What began as an equal balance of work and play was short lived and quickly evolved into a cycle of abandoning my responsibilities and education for nights of socializing and constant partying. I thought life was great- no classes, no professors, no deadlines, and no pointless research papers about subjects I had absolutely no interest in researching. I was an 18-year-old, playing adult. Yes, I occasionally worked, but I played exceedingly more, and yet I wasn’t even old enough to drink or rent a car. I spent more time on the beach, in clubs, and in the gym than most people do in their entire lives. I went out every night, not studying or working on any assigned tasks or papers. Why? I thought I had done it all, learned it all, and experienced it all. But I was still only a freshman. I lacked the maturity to make wise decisions regarding my education at that time. And eventually, the constant neglect of my responsibilities led to my subsequent downfall and failure in school which resulted in an astonishing grade point average of zero, losing a full scholarship, and eventually being placed on final academic probation. Another cause for my failure, coupled with extensive partying and social activities, was not having a clear picture as to why I was even attending college besides the fact that it was the norm after graduating high school. Lacking a vision was my primary reason for my failure. Not having a vision for the future except a distant hazy, gray picture of bleakness made college seem pointless and my future aimless. Also, dealing with a barrage of questions from my family and friends constantly pressuring me to choose my major and career path, and seeing their concern and not having chosen a major lead me to rethink my choice of why wanted to continue the college experience since it seemed in vain and directionless. I knew I wanted to be married and have children one day, but that’s not exactly offered as an undergraduate program. My problem was that I tire of busywork. Reading three hundred pages weekly for boring classes along with never-ending homework seemed pointless since I couldn’t find a legitimate reason as to why I should do it and what purpose it would serve in the future. I constantly complained about commuting because of the toll it takes, how early I had to leave the house, and how it eats hours of my week. Trivial and petty excuses some would say. Well, without knowing my purpose in college it wasn’t trivial, because without a vision for where it is heading, it was wasteful and burdensome, for me and my parents. Lacking a goal and vision at that time made college seem like unnecessary hard work, and entirely unproductive. Realizing how my failure could have been prevented is imperative in continuing my education. Excessive partying and social activities could have been balanced with my school work by prioritizing my life and what was important for my future. Having a balanced outlook with clear scheduling of my time and how I was going to accomplish my goals and tasks would have prevented my first cause for failure. As important as it seemed then to experience the parties and night life in college, if I would have balanced the two, I would not only have a plethora of memories, but also a toolbox of knowledge to prepare myself for life after college instead of now playing catch-up with my degree. Alongside prioritizing my time, having a clear picture of where I was going could have also prevented my failing freshman year. Relevant to not having a vision and failing in college, I am reminded of a biblical passage, “Where there is no vision, the people perish.” Proverbs 29:18. Having an outlook of where I someday would arrive would have given a purpose to what seemed like a tiring and fruitless expenditure of time and money. To be successful, you need to have a compelling vision that you are willing to go all out to achieve. So, it is important to have a clear vision of what you want to accomplish and then thinking very carefully about what you want to do and how you’re going to get there. Having a clear vision tailored around my goals, hobbies, and interests would have made the experience purposeful and meaningful, allowing me to be passionate and enthusiastic about my education. It would have meant something personal to me, something in which I would have enjoyed and endured for the sake of achieving my dream. So why did I fail? In final analysis of my lack of success during my first year of college, I’ve come to the conclusion that my mismanagement of time and lack of prioritizing my work over my social life was one cause for my failure. But the chief reason for my failure in college was the absence of an adequate plan and vision. Not having a clear vision of my purpose and future lead to my belief that there was no purpose in striving for an education, considering the fact that I didn’t know what I was getting an education for. And just as important as it is to recognize the causes for failure, it is also necessary to realize that the causes could have been prevented and to learn from the mistakes. So in sum, believing that all lived experiences are enriching, failing my first year of college enlightened me to the responsibilities of being an adult. And recognizing and understanding my reasons for failing have allowed me to, hopefully, avoid the same mistakes I made the first time as I am now currently in school and trying to make better on the college experience.